Saturday, 17 February 2018

The Ventures - Hawaii Five-O [original theme song]

complaint about Professors Gumley & McLeod

Email sent this morning to NES Director of Psychology:

"Dear Ms Thomson

This is a complaint about the behaviour and failures of Professor Andy Gumley and Professor Hamish McLeod in respect of their high academic positions on the DClinPsy Programme at the University of Glasgow and their treatment of a Scottish Survivor Mother and her three Sons.  That they have conspired to scapegoat and exclude me from the Programme and over the years have failed to positively influence the treatment of people with psychosis in Scotland, thereby colluding with the abuse of my Son and others in the locked seclusion room of Stratheden Ward 4/IPCU, Fife.

Here are the points to back up my complaint:

  • I first attended a Service User Research Group at the Mental Health and Wellbeing Unit led by Prof Gumley and Ross White on 9 September 2009 (for which I never got expenses), in an endeavour to be meaningfully involved in psychosis research and the training of Clinical Psychologists.  Over 9 years later and many attempts to have my considerable experience of surviving, coming through psychosis and psychiatry, recognised and appreciated, they together made sure that my voice was silenced on the DClinPsy programme at Glasgow by having me banned from any engagements.  Prof Gumley has not spoken to me since July 2017 apart from one brief snippy Email after I informed him of my Psychosis Journal article being published 'Risk of relapse in psychosis: facing the fear, resisting mental illness'.
  • Their close colleague Dr Gordon Mitchell, with whom they co-wrote papers on Acceptance and Commitment Therapy, was based at Stratheden Hospital since at least 2003 when I first engaged with him (on a cocktail of neurotoxins).  I contend that Dr Mitchell must have known about the use of the locked seclusion room in Ward 4.  He trained Nurses in ACT and mindfulness techniques and worked with patients in the rehab wards, many of whom had been in Ward 4.  Mitchell also assigned ClinPsy to two of my sons, following which I had to raise complaints about the behaviour of these inexperienced CPs, their failure to treat my youngest son as a person, believing Notes written by third parties which were fiction.  In 2012 Mitchell refused to listen to what my Son wanted, in respect of psychological therapy, determined to give him ACT or his interpretation of it.  We had asked for CBT techniques to deal with negative thoughts after the locked seclusion room abuses.  So I had to listen to my Son for years, hearing what the Nurses did to him, providing clinical psychology, you might say.
  • The failure of Professor Gumley to involve me in Psychosis research since 2009, rather cultivating others to back up his pet projects, I contend has narrowed the corridors of learning in Scotland in respect of coming through Psychosis which I have now experienced 4 times, latterly without psychiatric interference. Prof Gumley has had many opportunities to meaningfully involve me in psychosis research.  He is the lead person for the NES Matrix on Psychosis, is a collaborator on SIGN Guidelines for Schizophrenia and even Perinatal Psychiatry, I believe, despite never having any children of his own, not being a father.  Whereas I am very experienced in helping people with psychosis, my sons and other family members, personally tapering antipsychotics, maximum dose Venlafaxine and Lithium to make a full recovery from "Schizoaffective Disorder".  I am very unhappy that Gumley has excluded me from his research for 9yrs when I could have been a very useful collaborator, for the benefit of others in Scotland.
  • Professor McLeod propagates Anhedonia dogma, claiming that flatness is due to mental illness or schizophrenia when in my considerable experience of psychosis/psychiatry it was the antipsychotics which flattened me, caused low moods.  This was the case for me in 1978 and 1984, after puerperal psychosis and coercive psychiatric drug treatment, and in 2002 when Venlafaxine flattened me further and caused suicidal impulse, bone loss, 6in titanium plate on right fibula.  I had to get off the drug cocktail to survive, to have a life. I believe that McLeod is misleading Scottish ClinPsy trainees and others in MH organisations, carers, service users, by false teaching about flatness.  I heard his mentor Prof Paul Lysaker in 2016, Glasgow, talk at length about his work with schizophrenics, getting nowhere fast with metacognition and other mechanisms, failing to tackle the issue of coercive drugging and stigmatising labels.
  • Prof Gumley has cultivated the Scottish Recovery Network and Support in Mind Scotland.  These organisations have excluded and bullied me since 2008 whenever I expressed an opinion or criticised their poor practices eg SIMS pushing ECT in Tayside which resulted in me getting a bullying letter to my home address from their CEO, for which I got an apology.  SRN Director Simon Bradstreet pinched my idea and draft descriptor for a Peer Support HN unit which I gave him a copy of in late 2007, then proceeded to leave me out of SQA meetings for two years, despite my continual requests to be included.  Gumley has been a close colleague of Bradstreet since then, I suspect, influencing him to do a PhD in self stigma at Lancaster University which is probably being paid for by academia or government.  They now work together on Gumley's pet project EMPOWER which appears to be a big brother App, in collaboration with a Catholic university in Melbourne, to keep an eye on mental patients to see they don't escape from the system, keeping them caged, for fear of "risk of relapse".  Gumley promotes Attachment Theory dogma or the blaming of Mothers for mental illness (I don't know why he is so against mothers). 
  •  Prof Gumley is very close to ACUMEN and favours David Wright recently retired lead at this user/carer voluntary organisation, and has often spoken at their AGMs.  I'm a member at a distance and get their paperwork.  Gumley's CUSP project has ACUMEN's David Wright and SRN/SIMS Elinor Dowson as key players.  They both bullied me off CUSP in December 2014 when Prof Gumley wasn't there.  Another CUSP member, on SIMS and VOX, is a misogynist, used to ogle women in tabloids, making sexist comments at CUSP meetings and getting away with it for years.  Gumley made this guy co-Chair of CUSP, he is also co-Chair at the Edinburgh DClinPsy APEX group.  [I wonder why DClinPsy male academics in Scotland promote misogynists to positions of leadership?]  I contend that Professor Gumley favours some users and carers over others which results in bullying by the favourites over those who aren't favoured.  It's divisive and bad practice, causing disruption.  A misuse and abuse of academic power, hurting most those who are marginalised, as I was.  It's very cruel and I don't know why Gumley would foster this type of behaviour or do nothing to stop it.  That needs to be investigated, in my opinion.  I wouldn't want anyone else to go through what I had to endure.
  • I have major concerns about the links that Prof Gumley (and Prof Schwannauer) have with the BabyLab project at Copenhagen University where toddlers of "mentally ill" mothers, from Glasgow and other places, are being pathologised.  Dr Angus Macbeth is also involved in this travesty of research which is stigmatising young children for no good reason.  Schwannauer is targeting babies in the wombs of mentally ill mothers by influencing research in this area, using his high academic position, another misuse and abuse of power.  I don't know why these well paid Professors would want to label Mothers and children in Scotland.  What's in it for them? 

I'm a Community Education worker, have been since 1980 in Rigside, Lanarkshire, and it was always about empowerment and lifelong learning.  Organising play for children and young people, delivering training courses for Mothers and others in my local community and further afield.  I've set up many projects at the grassroots, helping people in communities to increase their potential, while also increasing mine.  It was mutually beneficial.  I'm a very experienced community development worker, latterly using these skills at Fife College to set up and run a mentoring project for students, 2006-8.  I have a wide range of abilities, professional qualifications and knowhow.  It doesn't and didn't make sense for DClinPsy academics and other MH leads in Scotland to marginalise and exclude me, bearing in mind my considerable experience, in work settings and in surviving psychosis/psychiatry.  At the 4 July 2017 meeting with Professor Gumley in his office, following the CUSP meeting, he tried to make out that I was "less than" by saying the opposite, that I was not more important than others.  That was a clever strategy.  I didn't accept his marginalisation and resisted his attempts to put me down.  I'm not less or more than others.  All I have ever wanted was a level playing field, equality of opportunity, the right to be heard and to be valued for who I am, my experience and know-how, especially in the area of psychosis.  Professor Gumley has not respected me or my abilities, and this disrespect has been compounded by the bad behaviour of his colleague Professor McLeod in recent communications.  Their interventionist attitudes are detrimental to the meaningful involvement of my voice and others in the improving of psychosis services in Scotland. 

I am copying in Chief Executive of NES Caroline Lamb, Colette Ferguson, Director of Nursing, Midwifery and Allied Health Professions, and Dorothy Wright, Director of Workforce, for their information, in the hope that my complaint may be taken seriously. 

Can you please confirm receipt of my complaint?  Thank you.  I will be putting this Email into a blog post, in the interests of transparency.

Yours sincerely,

Chrys Muirhead (Mrs)"


Thursday, 8 February 2018

Adults with Incapacity Act Reform Consultation: Hunter Watson Feb18

Received by Email from Hunter Watson, Mental Health Human Rights Campaigner, on 7 February 2018:

"Good afternoon,

                      In case it might be of interest to you, I attach a copy of my response to the ongoing consultation regarding the making of amendments to the Adults with Incapacity Act to ensure its compliance with the UNCRPD. Some proposed amendments I welcome, but a few I oppose. In particular I am opposed to the proposal that the scope of a section 47 certificate should be extended to authorise a doctor to have a person detained in hospital for a period of 28 days or more without, apparently, any right of appeal. In my opinion such a provision would comply with neither the ECHR nor the UNCRPD.
 
     In my opinion also, the opportunity should be taken to do as has already been done in Northern Ireland, i.e. to introduce legislation which is applicable to all persons, certainly all adults, who appear to have lack of legal capacity with respect to some matters.
 
             Best wishes,
                              Hunter Watson"
 
 


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Link to page of Papers and Articles by W Hunter Watson, Mental Health Human Rights Campaigner, retired Maths Lecturer, Aberdeen





Sunday, 4 February 2018

requesting university library access to help with Safe haven crisis House research

Email just sent to Dr David Gillanders, Academic Director, DClinPsy Programme, University of Edinburgh:

"Dear David

Edinburgh University Library 21Mar17
I am writing to ask if you can arrange for me to have online access to University of Edinburgh library resources, journals, papers, books and also so that I can borrow paper copies, as required, to help me with my continuing research into Safe haven crisis Houses?

Since my PhD was withdrawn I cannot now access journal articles or borrow books, to help me learn and to be informed about different models of psychotherapy.  This is a hindrance as I cannot afford to buy books or take out journal subscriptions.  I want to explore a range of psychoanalytic psychotherapies for psychosis, to learn and to understand more for when I visit crisis projects.

Edinburgh University Library 21Mar17
I hope that this may be possible as I can get down into Edinburgh with my bus pass or by train, off peak with my senior railcard for £5.65 return.  My action research will involve visiting safe havens and crisis houses in England, Wales and Ireland, which I will self fund, as cheaply as possible, travel and accommodation, visiting a few projects, including peer/survivor led, when in an area.  Ultimately I hope to visit some European initiatives, if I can afford it.  Otherwise I will be gathering information and evidence by Email and researching online.

As intimated, I'm taking a break from APEX, it wasn't a positive experience for me, remembering the feelings of being silenced for speaking out about my son's abuse in Stratheden IPCU, February 2012.  I can understand that the voices of other service users, survivors and carers are important too.  I have other ways of speaking out and having a voice, fortunately.

Copying in other DClinPsy academics and clinical tutors for their information, Judy Thomson, Director of Psychology, NES, also my MSP and MP.

Regards, Chrys

This Email will go in a blog post."


Friday, 2 February 2018

reshaping the Matrix for Psychosis; researching Safe Houses, psychoanalytic approaches

Another Email sent this morning to Judy Thomson, Director of Psychology, NHS Education for Scotland, on the back of the one sent to Professor Gumley on reshaping the Matrix for Psychosis:

"To add, Judy.

In addition to researching Safe haven crisis Houses I will be exploring psychoanalytic approaches to psychosis which help people come through, transition, altered mind states and acute sensitivities, resisting the biomedical model of mental illness, coercive drugging/medicating, risk of relapse scaremongering and the blaming of Mothers.  It's been my experience that Clinical Psychology in Scotland holds the coats of the systematic abusers by silencing the voices of the abused, practising avoidance, distraction techniques, reinforcing dogma, narrowing the corridors to learning and keeping people tied in to a patriarchal system, infantilised, fearful of independence.

I've found the book 'History Beyond Trauma' by Francoise Davoine and Jean-Max Gaudilliere to be inspiring and educational, having met these psychoanalysts in person at Goldsmiths, London, in February 2011 (Gaudilliere has passed on):


http://chrysmuirheadwrites.blogspot.co.uk/p/history-beyond-trauma.html

you might describe me as self-taught, still learning about psychoanalytic psychotherapy, having practised it in 2015 when coming through another psychosis myself, avoiding psychiatry.  

I hope to live long and to work on this project for 20yrs or more, by which time you will all be retired with your big pensions, I wish you well on it. 

Scotland needs a paradigm shift in working with mentally distressed people, folk who externalise their distress after life trauma.  I believe this is achievable, it's why I invited Bob Whitaker to speak in Cupar, 19 November 2011:
https://vimeo.com/40373667

 
I look forward to the time when we will have wider corridors of learning and a variety of approaches to working with psychosis, academics and civil servants who are open and respectful to survivor Mothers and Others, who appreciate questioning voices and who do not misuse and abuse their power, because they can.

Chrys"

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Robert Whitaker, Anatomy of an Epidemic, public lecture Cupar, Fife, Scotland, 19 November 2011 from Chrys Muirhead on Vimeo.


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28 January 2018: reshaping the Matrix for Psychosis: Dear Professor Gumley ...


Sunday, 28 January 2018

The Scottish Fiddle Orchestra - The Eightsome Reel

reshaping the Matrix for Psychosis: Dear Professor Gumley ...

Here is an Email just sent to Andy Gumley, Professor of Psychological Therapy, University of Glasgow, and Contributor to the NHS Education for Scotland Matrix:

"Dear Professor Gumley

I want to be involved in reshaping the Matrix document in the area of Psychosis because in my experience of over 50 years, family and personal, what is contained within the "evidence tables" does not chime with our experiences, 8 of us over 7 decades in 3 generations.

http://www.nes.scot.nhs.uk/media/3403916/matrix_-_adultmentalhealthtables.pdf

I am writing to you because it's your name displayed as the Contributer for Psychosis, although as far as I'm aware you have no personal experience of psychosis or of psychiatric treatment so your "evidence" is secondhand, not real.


I am concerned about the narrowness of the "interventions" on offer for Psychosis in the Matrix document.  I experienced another psychosis in 2015, avoiding psychiatric or psychological intervention.  Rather I journeyed through with the aid of companions, practising transference and counter-transference, virtually, and working through the altered mind states by reason.  I didn't share most of the thoughts with my clinical companions, although we did share other information and imaginings.  I've learnt over the years of engaging with psychiatry, more recently clinpsy, to reveal very little because of how it might be interpreted, as symptoms of illness rather than sensitivity due to life trauma and it's accompanying emotional and physical breakdown.  It's a matter of trust I suppose.

Therefore I believe that psychoanalytic psychotherapy should be included in the Matrix, a wide range of voices of lived experience central to the reshaping, allowing more freedom of expression and opportunities for recovery and transformation, avoiding interference and coercive treatment.

I'm quite determined about my involvement in new ways of working with psychosis in Scotland.  I've got grandchildren now and they matter very much to me.  I don't want them abused by the system too.

Copying in Judy Thomson and relevant others.

Warm regards, Chrys"

Friday, 26 January 2018

FOI request: DClinPsy Glasgow teaching programme #HamishMcLeod

This is an FOI request sent by Email to Dr Hamish McLeod, Programme Director, DClinPsy Glasgow:

"Strapline: FOI request: DClinPsy Glasgow teaching programme

Dear Dr McLeod

This is an FOI request.

I want to know detailed information about the teaching programme materials used and promoted within the DClinPsy programme at the University of Glasgow, to try and discover what the culture is, how open it is, how secure staff and trainees feel, if it's like a family or more of a hierarchical organisation, exclusive and elite.

Here are my requests (when I use the word "you" I mean as Programme Director, it's not personal):

  • I would like a list of topics taught within the programme, together with materials used, their focus, philosophy, references, approaches, processes and any other information which would help me understand what Glasgow DClinPsy academics and ClinPsy practitioners are delivering to trainees
  • who are the staff teaching on this course, what are their backgrounds, philosophy, qualifications, experience etc?  How are lecturing staff chosen for teaching on your programme, what processes are used to select? [I know that Attachment Theory, Risk of Relapse, Anhedonia and Metacognition are main subject areas but I have no knowledge of any other subject areas, whether there is psychoanalytic psychotherapy taught and its focus].
  • how is your programme monitored and evaluated effectively, from staff and trainee perspectives?  How do you collect trainee feedback and ensure that it's independent, that there is space for a student to be critical, honest, without it affecting how they are treated and their future job prospects?  [I know from personal experience how I've been treated, excluded for speaking out and denied the opportunity to defend myself and my reputation].
  • how do you meaningfully involve the voices of lived experience in your programme?  how do you ensure a wide range of user/survivor/carer opinions and viewpoints so that trainees will be well equipped to work effectively with the wide range of patients and people they are likely to come in contact with?  how do you meaningfully involve critical and questioning mental health user/survivor voices in your programme without silencing them?  how do you and your staff avoid directive interactions with people who have survived mental illness and coercive psychiatric treatment without retraumatising them?  [I'm thinking of invasive behaviours that may come over as bullying or intimidation by dint of the fact that many people with "lived experience" have been subject to abusive treatment in MH settings for just saying No].
  • what are your processes and procedures for meaningfully involving a wide range of ClinPsy lecturers and lived experience voices?  I want to know how senior academics avoid influencing the DClinPsy programme at Glasgow with their own agenda, limiting the potential of the trainees and narrowing their outlook.
  • when you are choosing trainees for the programme how do you ensure that the selection process is completely independent and fair, without bias?  How do you avoid selecting trainees who favour the topics which the senior academics teach?  I'm trying to discover how you are opening doors to a broad range of trainee opinions and backgrounds so that conversations and discussion in classes will be enriched by varying viewpoints.  Which will ultimately benefit people in Scotland asking for psychological therapies which are person-centred, to them.

I will put this FOI request into a blog post and am copying in Judy Thomson, NES, Scottish Government civil servants and ministers, plus relevant others, for their information. 

Once I receive the response I am likely to be asking more questions.

Regards, Chrys"


FOI request: Step on Stress; Psychology in Psychosis; NHS Fife

This is an FOI request sent by Email to Dr Katherine Cheshire, Head of Psychology, NHS Fife:

"Strapline: FOI request: Step on Stress; Psychology in Psychosis

Dear Dr Cheshire

This is an FOI request.

I would like a digital copy of Step on Stress course, which I attended in St Andrews, the 3rd one yesterday evening.  I have concerns about the materials being promoted and need a digital copy so as to write a critique about it, detailing my concerns and suggesting a more balanced approach to supporting people who are stressed.

Secondly I heard about PIP, Psychology in Psychosis, which is based at Stratheden Hospital, from a woman who attended the Step on Stress course yesterday, and would like detailed information about this course:

  • materials used, their focus, philosophy, references, approaches, processes and any other information which would help me understand what NHS Fife is promoting, regarding psychology in psychosis.
  • who the target group are for PIP?  Is it people in the community, patients in hospital, outpatients, patients referred by GPs, self referrals or whoever?
  • when did PIP start up, how was it formed?  Who are the staff running this course, what are their backgrounds, philosophy, qualifications, experience etc?  I am keen to get a picture of who is leading this initiative.  [I remember Clinical Psychologists in Fife who had their own pet projects which influenced the way that my family were treated, negatively]
  • how is PIP monitored and evaluated?  How do you collect patient feedback and ensure that it's independent, that there is space for a person to be critical, honest, without it affecting their future access to psychological therapies in Fife?  [it was our family's experience in Fife since 2003 that if we didn't like the psychological therapy on offer and made any critical remarks then we got nothing else, we were in fact banished for speaking out]

I will put this FOI request into a blog post and am copying in Judy Thomson, NES, Scottish Government civil servants and ministers, plus relevant others, for their information.

Regards, Chrys"

Step on Stress Session Three 'Manage your Mind' p8

Monday, 22 January 2018

FOI Response : DClinPsy funding Glasgow/Edinburgh Universities: what stood out for me

Here is the response, received today, to the FOI Request to NES about DClinPsy programme funding Glasgow & Edinburgh Universities I sent to Judy Thomson, Director of Psychology, NHS Education for Scotland, on 22 December 2017:



Here are the points which stood out for me:
  • Nearly £2million per year 2017-8 awarded to Glas/Edin Universities for DClinPsy training; 179 trainees in total; it's not a lot of money when compared to the cost of psychiatric inpatient treatment, at least £3000/person/week in Stratheden Hospital, Fife, more if low or medium secure ward.
  • mention of NES developing a "confidential trainee survey" which is interesting, has it been difficult for trainees to give honest feedback?
  • "number of trainees we can afford" regarding decisions about funding; I wonder what impacts on this?  is it just a matter of budgets or do they fund other psychological or psychotherapeutic training?
  • "There is no requirement for trainees to continue to work in Scotland post qualification."  I'm surprised by this, considering the cost of training, the fact that trainees are paid to do the doctorate; it doesn't make good business sense, in my opinion.
  • I have found that the teaching materials at both universities are not openly available for perusal and I suspect if I made an FOI request that I wouldn't get to see them.  The secrecy is a concern.  What have they got to hide?  I've been told it's to do with "intellectual property" but it seems a lame excuse.
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23 December 2017: FOI Request NES: DClinPsy programme funding Glasgow & Edinburgh Universities


Saturday, 20 January 2018

there are two sides to the story of mental illness & psychiatric diagnoses #PTMFramework

Some tweets this morning about mental illness and the patriarchy:

Janus







Tuesday, 16 January 2018

What are your burning issues for 2018? Safe Houses for Psychosis in Scotland #BMJ

'Re: What are your burning issues for 2018? Safe Houses for Psychosis in Scotland': my Response published in BMJ online, 16 January 2018



"My vision for 2018 and beyond is to influence the development of Safe Houses in Scotland for people who experience psychosis, alternatives to psychiatric inpatient treatment, offering a range of therapies and activities for mental wellbeing and recovery, including minimum prescribing of neuroleptics and help with tapering meds. Therefore I am researching safe haven crisis houses in other countries to evidence good practice, leadership and management, and to hear the stories from the people involved. 

Now aged 65, I’ve experienced puerperal psychosis twice, in 1978 and 1984, a menopausal psychosis in 2002, voluntarily entering psychiatric wards on all 3 occasions to be coercively drugged, eventually tapering meds myself, making a full recovery. More of my story can be found in a Psychosis Journal Opinion Piece, October 2017: 'Risk of relapse in psychosis: facing the fear, resisting mental illness' (1) and other stories in my main blog (2).

I’ve supported my 3 sons, 41, 39 and 33, when they experienced psychosis/psychiatry, helped them taper meds as I did. Then in 2015 I transitioned a 4th psychosis after years of campaigning for justice after my son's negative treatment as a psychiatric patient in February 2012, this time avoiding psychiatric treatment (3). This was a much more positive and life affirming experience from which I emerged a stronger, more confident, person. 

I believe that psychosis is transitional, can be a journey, an escape, a positive and uplifting experience if reasoned out, worked through and helped by companions, friends who are equals, without agendas. People who are willing to share in an Other's pain and imaginings, and in so doing may become part of the psychosis journey themselves. 

(1) Risk of relapse in psychosis: facing the fear, resisting mental illness: https://doi.org/10.1080/17522439.2017.1381757
(2) Chrys Muirhead Writes blog: http://chrysmuirheadwrites.blogspot.co.uk/
(3) Hospital Horrors: Patient locked in cell with no toilet, food or water; Scottish Sunday Express, 5 October 2014: https://www.express.co.uk/news/uk/518869/Patient-locked-in-cell-with-no-...



my drawing MH Strategy meeting Edinburgh 14Sep16


Risk of relapse in psychosis: facing the fear, resisting mental illness


DClinPsy Lesson #1 Hands Off 16Jan18

going into DClinPsy CUSP meeting 4Jul17
15 January 2018: This is the first in a series of short talks to Clinical Psychology Trainees at Glasgow and Edinburgh Universities, in the first instance.  I've been banned from teaching DClinPsy trainees at the University of Glasgow by programme director Hamish McLeod, backed up by Andy Gumley, which has spurred me on to do this, to have an influence and to resist their dogma and discrimination.

I will likely add to these talks in future, putting in links to information and other blog posts.

Gartnavel Hospital
Hands Off

When working with patients, clients, people, please do your best not to manipulate, direct or be prescriptive.  I've seen some of the DClinPsy teaching materials and watched role play videos on CBT which, from my psychiatric survivor Mother perspective, are counter-productive to independent thinking, too interventionist.  

When I was a mental health service user what I needed most was someone who treated me like an equal, believed in my ability to recover and shared information that would help me take back control of my life again.  I didn't need parental guidance or patriarchal decision-making, or for a Clinical Psychologist (ClinPsy) to compare me to their Bipolar Mother and offload their own thoughts and meanderings (2003, Fife).  That was unhelpful.  Fortunately the CPN was helpful when she came to my home for a visit, shared her life with me, believed in me.  

Maybe coming into my home made a difference.  Seeing something of my personality and potential, who I was underneath the psychiatric drug cocktail which had reduced my agency and made me dependent on the system.  That there was a human being under the skin & drug treatment.  This is important, I think, seeing the person for who they are, and listening, with no other agenda but to be of help.

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Protesting about being marginalised by ClinPsy academics, in front of the MH and Wellbeing Unit, Gartnavel, Glasgow where the DClinPsy Programme is based: "I didn't find it pleasant being in a psychiatric hospital, was always coerced, so I'm looking to research Safe haven crisis Houses ..."


9Sep17 doing a peaceful protest
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In Cupar, food shopping, my rucksack with bags inside to carry messages home in the bus.  Can't afford to run a car now, since the end of 2015, after 40yrs of driving.  It's costly to speak out about bad practices in mental health and to be an unwaged Carer, singlehandedly supporting my son after we whistleblowed about the human rights abuses of the locked seclusion room, Stratheden IPCU, Fife.  NHS Fife benefited, receiving £4.4million from Scottish Government.  It definitely doesn't pay to be a MH campaigner in Scotland.

8Nov17 at Cupar Rail Station passing through
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Risk of relapse in psychosis: facing the fear, resisting mental illness

My Opinion Piece published in Psychosis Journal, October 2017: http://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/17522439.2017.1381757

Link to complete article

"In my experience psychosis was a journey from one place to another, necessary and transitional, in response to life trauma. I believe that we are all on the psychosis spectrum but only some of us will require respite and a break from everyday existence. Preferably a safe haven and secure base from which we can rise again, stronger than before, wiser and more able to face the next challenge that life brings to us."